Yesterday I came face to face with one of those hurtful things. My initial reaction was anger. I think that's pretty normal. In working with kids who have been 'hurt' in one way or another, I've learned that the go-to emotion when you don't understand something is typically anger. And let me tell you, I felt what those little kids must feel in full force: an anger that starts deep inside and wells up until you feel physically sick, like someone has kicked you in the stomach and you can't breathe. And I almost let it get the best of me.
As adults we all know its better to forgive and forget, to move on, to get over it, but I never realized just how difficult that could be. Needless to say, I had a hard time sleeping last night due to the racing thoughts that were swirling inside my curly head. As I was lying in bed last night and this morning, I played the situation over and over and know where I went wrong. I'm not meant to judge people or situations, I'm human, and that's a job for Someone much bigger than me. I've been shown the greatest mercy mankind will every know: forgiveness. A gift I certainly don't deserve, by Someone who has never met me on this Earth...and that grace is overly extended by Him every single day as I flounder through life trying to do the right thing and falling terribly short!
I saw a post on Twitter last night by Paige. Funny how you can gain insight from the thoughts of a teenager who is an obsessive tweeter!! :) It was simple: forgive & forget #wordstoliveby
I need to forgive (I think I've already done that, but perhaps I need to do a little more examining) and FORGET (that's going to be the hard part, since I have the memory of an elephant..I really hope their memories are as great as everyone thinks they are, or else I've been horribly misled my entire life).
This morning I was drawn back to two scriptures that I memorized decades ago when I faced some very hurtful times: Matthew 7:1-2 "Do not judge, lest you be judged. For in the way you judge, you will be judged; and by your standard of measure, it will be measured to you." and Luke 6:37 "And do not judge and you will not be judged; and do not condemn, and you will not be condemned; pardon and you will be pardoned." #REALWORDSTOLIVEBY
love this!!! such a good reminder and why is it so stinking hard to do?!!!!
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